Had a phone call from my endocrinologist today. On the 22nd January, I had blood tests done to check out my serum osmolality, which basically looked at the sodium levels in my blood. Getting the results was not so simple; I was registered as a temporary resident at my old GP's where my parents live, and the GP was not confident about interpreting the results of the test, as he does so few of them, so he faxed the results for my endocrinologist to interpret.
I never heard back from my endocrinologist, and although I thought about calling frankly I couldn't be bothered because trying to get a hold of them is always such a ridiculous faff. So I assumed no news was good news. Then they called today, to say that when the blood tests were taken, my sodium levels were a bit low. So I need to get that checked out with another blood test. It's fairly common for sodium levels to drop a bit right after this kind of surgery and then self-correct, and I don't really have any symptoms of low sodium levels, so I guess we'll have to wait and see.
The endocrinologist asked how I was feeling and whether I was "back to normal", which kind of surprised me as it's only been three weeks and two days since the surgery. I said no, which seemed to surprise her - she asked in what way, so I explained that I get tired, I'm still kind of slow and I get worn out quite easily (I occassionally get a little headache and my nose is definitely not back to normal but the tiredness is definitely the key point!). All of which seemed perfectly normal to me shortly after a major operation, and in fact I'm considerably less tired and slow than I was after my last surgery (although that is mainly because I was super pathetic last time). But she wants to check out my thyroid levels as well, in case my tiredness is a symptom of hypothyroidism; there's always a risk that, having removed the pituitary tumour producing thyroid-stimulating hormone, they've removed some of the healthy pituitary tissue as well and that therefore I've gone in the other direction and now have low, rather than high, thyroid levels.
I was a bit worried about that immediately after the phonecall, but then my boyfriend pointed out that she could well have been mixed up as to how long ago my surgery was, or that they could just be being very cautious. Because I had an injection of lanreotide (which lowers your TSH levels) just a week and a bit before the surgery, there's also the possibility that the drug is still in my system and is now lowering them too much.
So the long and short of it is: more blood tests, wait and see!
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Monday, 24 December 2012
How Not To Get A Date
So there's quite a lot of catching-up to do, given that I have been a bad pituitary blogger for the past month and a half and yet quite a few highly relevant things have happened, including meeting with the neurosurgeon and Ear Nose and Throat people (who are apparently more properly called Otolaryngologists - who knew?) and finally getting a date for surgery. I shall start at the very beginning...
At the beginning of November, my next injection was due. You probably know by now that I need monthly injections of lanreotide, a somatostatin analogue, to suppress the overproduction of thyroid stimulating hormone by my pituitary tumour. These injections are delivered into my hip via the medium of a really big needle. It's so big I'm pretty sure a camel actually could pass through it.*
One of the nurses greeted me when I arrived, took my bloods and then went to get the injection. Then something happened which had never happened before.
"Would you like any freezing spray?" she asked me.
I was nonplussed. Previously, I had always associated freezing spray with childhood trips to the Irish seaside, not hospitals. I had to ask what it was.
"Oh, it's just a spray which freezes the skin before an injection," the nurse explained.
Those who know me well will know that one of the few things I like less than injections is being cold. "Sounds unpleasant," I said.
"Yes, it's quite painful," the nurse said breezily. "But some patients still prefer it."
Now at this point, I admit perhaps I should have smelled a rat. No other nurse had ever offered me freezing spray prior to one of these injections. But I wasn't worried.
Like a fool.
Most nurses, when they do this injection, hold the needle (did I mention it's massive?) against your skin and then gently press it in. Not this nurse. Instead, she opted to hold the needle some distance away from the injection site, then take a great swing and stab me with it. It was considerably more painful than usual, and I bled a lot more than normal as well.
I can see why her patients usually ask for freeze spray.
So, I promptly became the proud owner of an excitingly multi-coloured hip bruise, which lasted for three weeks before finally fading just before I was due the next injection. I actually did try to take a photo to show you all but it just came out as a blurry smoosh. For a couple of days I couldn't even lie in bed on that side without wincing.
Anyway, that anecdote was by way of being an aperitif to the main cock-up that I encountered on that trip to the hospital. While my hip was bleeding gently, one of the endocrine nurses asked if I'd heard
anything from the Neurosurgery or Ear Nose & Throat departments, who were supposed to be getting in touch with me about my impending surgery. I explained that I'd still heard nothing and that despite my attempts to call them I'd never got through to speak to an actual human being, and they'd never returned any of my messages. The nurse went off, had a look at her computer, and returned to tell me that I'd had an appointment with ENT. On the 26th October. Which was four days previously.
I also had an appointment booked in on the 5th November with Neurosurgery which I knew nothing about, and ENT had written to me to rearrange my missed appointment for the 6th November.
They'd been writing to my old address.
I still don't have the faintest idea how it happened. As soon as I moved house, I duly phoned the hospital and updated them with my new address. Not long afterwards, I received an appointment from the MRI Department at my new house. I sighed a deep sigh of relief in the happy knowledge
that my details had been successfully updated... and it never occurred to me that they might be sending appointments to my old address.
Obviously I am also slightly put out at my former housemates, who knew I was going to have surgery and who I'd asked to forward on any hospital-looking letters, or even just let me know if they arrived so that I could drop by to pick them up. But how the hospital could get it right... and then revert to getting it wrong, I have no idea. It's not the first time it's happened, either - avid readers will recall that information about a ream of tests I had to have in July was sent to my old address despite the fact that I'd not lived there in four months and all my other letters had gone through correctly.
So obviously, I was very upset about this. I had been doing everything I could to find out
about my appointments, and no-one ever got back to me. You have to wonder how many appointments I would have had to miss before anyone bothered to do so.
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* Hell yeah, I'm cultured.
At the beginning of November, my next injection was due. You probably know by now that I need monthly injections of lanreotide, a somatostatin analogue, to suppress the overproduction of thyroid stimulating hormone by my pituitary tumour. These injections are delivered into my hip via the medium of a really big needle. It's so big I'm pretty sure a camel actually could pass through it.*
One of the nurses greeted me when I arrived, took my bloods and then went to get the injection. Then something happened which had never happened before.
"Would you like any freezing spray?" she asked me.
I was nonplussed. Previously, I had always associated freezing spray with childhood trips to the Irish seaside, not hospitals. I had to ask what it was.
"Oh, it's just a spray which freezes the skin before an injection," the nurse explained.
Those who know me well will know that one of the few things I like less than injections is being cold. "Sounds unpleasant," I said.
"Yes, it's quite painful," the nurse said breezily. "But some patients still prefer it."
Now at this point, I admit perhaps I should have smelled a rat. No other nurse had ever offered me freezing spray prior to one of these injections. But I wasn't worried.
Like a fool.
Most nurses, when they do this injection, hold the needle (did I mention it's massive?) against your skin and then gently press it in. Not this nurse. Instead, she opted to hold the needle some distance away from the injection site, then take a great swing and stab me with it. It was considerably more painful than usual, and I bled a lot more than normal as well.
I can see why her patients usually ask for freeze spray.
So, I promptly became the proud owner of an excitingly multi-coloured hip bruise, which lasted for three weeks before finally fading just before I was due the next injection. I actually did try to take a photo to show you all but it just came out as a blurry smoosh. For a couple of days I couldn't even lie in bed on that side without wincing.
Anyway, that anecdote was by way of being an aperitif to the main cock-up that I encountered on that trip to the hospital. While my hip was bleeding gently, one of the endocrine nurses asked if I'd heard
anything from the Neurosurgery or Ear Nose & Throat departments, who were supposed to be getting in touch with me about my impending surgery. I explained that I'd still heard nothing and that despite my attempts to call them I'd never got through to speak to an actual human being, and they'd never returned any of my messages. The nurse went off, had a look at her computer, and returned to tell me that I'd had an appointment with ENT. On the 26th October. Which was four days previously.
I also had an appointment booked in on the 5th November with Neurosurgery which I knew nothing about, and ENT had written to me to rearrange my missed appointment for the 6th November.
They'd been writing to my old address.
I still don't have the faintest idea how it happened. As soon as I moved house, I duly phoned the hospital and updated them with my new address. Not long afterwards, I received an appointment from the MRI Department at my new house. I sighed a deep sigh of relief in the happy knowledge
that my details had been successfully updated... and it never occurred to me that they might be sending appointments to my old address.
Obviously I am also slightly put out at my former housemates, who knew I was going to have surgery and who I'd asked to forward on any hospital-looking letters, or even just let me know if they arrived so that I could drop by to pick them up. But how the hospital could get it right... and then revert to getting it wrong, I have no idea. It's not the first time it's happened, either - avid readers will recall that information about a ream of tests I had to have in July was sent to my old address despite the fact that I'd not lived there in four months and all my other letters had gone through correctly.
So obviously, I was very upset about this. I had been doing everything I could to find out
about my appointments, and no-one ever got back to me. You have to wonder how many appointments I would have had to miss before anyone bothered to do so.
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* Hell yeah, I'm cultured.
Friday, 26 October 2012
Schrödinger's MRI Scan (A Hallowe'en Special)
Some time ago, I received an appointment from the hospital for an MRI scan on the 31st October. I immediately - and diligently - phoned them up to ask whether or not this was a mistake. I had been due to have a scan after three continuous months on my current medication, and due to delays in getting funding for my lanreotide injections, I'd not had one for two months at that point. I was told not to cancel the appointment, and that I would be informed of whether or not to go.
I've reminded them about this twice since, and both times been informed that I almost certainly won't need to have the scan on the 31st - because it would be wildly pointless - but that I shouldn't cancel it, and it will be rearranged.
Well, the scan is next Wednesday (on Hallowe'en, no less!) and I've still heard bugger all. I don't know what the cost of an MRI scan is to the NHS, but I do know that the scanners at my local hospital can sometimes be booked up months in advance, and for me to be hanging on to an appointment I don't need, or to have a scan that won't be particularly useful to my doctors, is stupid.
I was going to attempt to call and remind them about this at lunchtime today, but I was hit by a sudden feeling of futility and hopelessness, so I composed a poem about it instead.
***
My MRI on Wednesday is sure to be a blast
I'll have more scans in future; I've had some in the past.
But this one will be special, for there's something I don't know -
Nobody has informed me whether or not I should go!
I can't say if they're expecting me to turn up on the day,
Or whether they'll be angry if instead I stay away.
I'm caught in a Catch-22, for I've no way of knowing
if I should go (or not) until I am already going.
It's Schrödinger's MRI scan, with my head inside the box
I'm quantumly entangled like a cat (or like a fox.
The fox is very prone to being used in paradoxes
For it's fairly cute and docile, and it wears such tiny sockses.)
My scan is not alive, yet its brain function has not ended
In terms of animation, it is currently suspended.
Like Dracula, there's still a chance it may rise from the grave;
EEG scans indicate disrupted delta waves.
Perhaps, for Hallowe'en, the MRI team has decided
that they're sick of being left out, and cruelly derided
(The other hospital staff tend to laugh and call them names
because, you see, they claim all MRI scans look the same).
And consequently they've now all come up with this little caper
(Which I find about as funny as a piece of plain white paper)
They won't click "confirm appointment", neither will they click "delete"
And when I show up for my scan, they'll all shout: "Trick or treat!"
I've reminded them about this twice since, and both times been informed that I almost certainly won't need to have the scan on the 31st - because it would be wildly pointless - but that I shouldn't cancel it, and it will be rearranged.
Well, the scan is next Wednesday (on Hallowe'en, no less!) and I've still heard bugger all. I don't know what the cost of an MRI scan is to the NHS, but I do know that the scanners at my local hospital can sometimes be booked up months in advance, and for me to be hanging on to an appointment I don't need, or to have a scan that won't be particularly useful to my doctors, is stupid.
I was going to attempt to call and remind them about this at lunchtime today, but I was hit by a sudden feeling of futility and hopelessness, so I composed a poem about it instead.
***
My MRI on Wednesday is sure to be a blast
I'll have more scans in future; I've had some in the past.
But this one will be special, for there's something I don't know -
Nobody has informed me whether or not I should go!
I can't say if they're expecting me to turn up on the day,
Or whether they'll be angry if instead I stay away.
I'm caught in a Catch-22, for I've no way of knowing
if I should go (or not) until I am already going.
It's Schrödinger's MRI scan, with my head inside the box
I'm quantumly entangled like a cat (or like a fox.
The fox is very prone to being used in paradoxes
For it's fairly cute and docile, and it wears such tiny sockses.)
My scan is not alive, yet its brain function has not ended
In terms of animation, it is currently suspended.
Like Dracula, there's still a chance it may rise from the grave;
EEG scans indicate disrupted delta waves.
Perhaps, for Hallowe'en, the MRI team has decided
that they're sick of being left out, and cruelly derided
(The other hospital staff tend to laugh and call them names
because, you see, they claim all MRI scans look the same).
And consequently they've now all come up with this little caper
(Which I find about as funny as a piece of plain white paper)
They won't click "confirm appointment", neither will they click "delete"
And when I show up for my scan, they'll all shout: "Trick or treat!"
Thursday, 25 October 2012
Pituitary Awareness Quiz: Day 8
I received one incredibly excellent poem in response to yesterday's question, I thoroughly encourage you all to go check it out! (And remember; it's never too late to respond!)
Today's question will be rather more staid and run-of-the-mill, however it may require a little detective work to find the right answer. Equally though, you have a fifty-fifty chance of getting it right without doing the legwork! But if you get it wrong, you'll look kind of foolish right? Hmm... tricksy.
Q.8: I'm currently receiving monthly lanreotide injections. These are somatostatin analogues - hormone injections - which counteract the effect of my pituitary adenoma producing too much thyroid hormone.
Assuming this is the only medication I'm taking, and assuming I live in England... am I allowed to donate blood?
a) Yes
b) No
Today's question will be rather more staid and run-of-the-mill, however it may require a little detective work to find the right answer. Equally though, you have a fifty-fifty chance of getting it right without doing the legwork! But if you get it wrong, you'll look kind of foolish right? Hmm... tricksy.
Pituitary Awareness Quiz
Day 8, Question 8
Q.8: I'm currently receiving monthly lanreotide injections. These are somatostatin analogues - hormone injections - which counteract the effect of my pituitary adenoma producing too much thyroid hormone.
Assuming this is the only medication I'm taking, and assuming I live in England... am I allowed to donate blood?
a) Yes
b) No
Tuesday, 16 October 2012
October's Injection
I went to the hospital on the first of October to have my latest lanreotide injection. It feels like ages ago now! They're a long-acting formulation, so they last for about four weeks in your system, meaning that the next one is due on or around the 29th October. Of course, I don't have a date or an appointment to get the next one. That would make life far too easy!
I have slightly begun to wonder whether the hospital has enrolled me in some kind of secret government trial without my knowledge and against my will, where they gradually increase their level of administrative incompetence every month, and see how long it takes before I start frothing at the mouth.
Anyway, I went for the injection and dragged my boyfriend along to the hospital with me, to keep me company during the (usually fairly lengthy) wait. Of course, this was the one time that there was virtually no hanging around, and I was whisked away into the endocrine nurses' lair almost as soon as I arrived. I did request that he get me a coffee while he waited - but as he is not a drinker of hot caffeinated beverages, he became overwhelmed by the variety of -accinos on offer, and consequently I had to buy it myself afterwards. So I decided to publicly shame him on this blog. Friends and family, be warned.
The injection itself wasn't too bad, I'm not going to repeat my usual "sweet jesus guys it's a MASSIVE FREAKING NEEDLE" post (oh wait; yes I am. It's HUGE). The nurse giving me the injection was very apologetic and really somewhat incensed by the delays that I'd had in trying to get it - apparently not only had it taken longer than usual to garner various signatures because everyone had been on holiday, but they also managed to lose the paperwork at some point. Ah, the NHS at its finest.
The long and the short of it is that I'm pretty well determined to write a letter of complaint to the hospital, finally. I don't enjoy writing letters and I've kind of been putting it off, but I really should do it. As anyone who reads this blog regularly must be aware, I spend a frankly alarming amount of time chasing the hospital up about things they've promised to arrange and then entirely failed or forgotten to deliver - and aside from anything else, even ignoring their track history, it really can't be acceptable that patients' treatment is delayed by a month because a doctor goes on holiday. If I go on holiday from my [insert mystery job here] and something needs to get signed off, my colleagues can sign it off for me after checking my notes. I appreciate that medicine is a rather more high-risk calling than [insert lowly job here] but I refuse to believe that in hospitals across the country no-one gets treatment in August because half the doctors are sunning themselves in the south of France.
Post-hospital (and post-coffee) we trudged back to my house, limping slightly (well, I was limping). Unfortunately, having to go all the way to the hospital for these injections means much more walking immediately afterwards, and my leg is quite sore for a few hours. By the evening though, I was fully recovered and even went dancing, which was excellent!
I have slightly begun to wonder whether the hospital has enrolled me in some kind of secret government trial without my knowledge and against my will, where they gradually increase their level of administrative incompetence every month, and see how long it takes before I start frothing at the mouth.
Anyway, I went for the injection and dragged my boyfriend along to the hospital with me, to keep me company during the (usually fairly lengthy) wait. Of course, this was the one time that there was virtually no hanging around, and I was whisked away into the endocrine nurses' lair almost as soon as I arrived. I did request that he get me a coffee while he waited - but as he is not a drinker of hot caffeinated beverages, he became overwhelmed by the variety of -accinos on offer, and consequently I had to buy it myself afterwards. So I decided to publicly shame him on this blog. Friends and family, be warned.
The injection itself wasn't too bad, I'm not going to repeat my usual "sweet jesus guys it's a MASSIVE FREAKING NEEDLE" post (oh wait; yes I am. It's HUGE). The nurse giving me the injection was very apologetic and really somewhat incensed by the delays that I'd had in trying to get it - apparently not only had it taken longer than usual to garner various signatures because everyone had been on holiday, but they also managed to lose the paperwork at some point. Ah, the NHS at its finest.
The long and the short of it is that I'm pretty well determined to write a letter of complaint to the hospital, finally. I don't enjoy writing letters and I've kind of been putting it off, but I really should do it. As anyone who reads this blog regularly must be aware, I spend a frankly alarming amount of time chasing the hospital up about things they've promised to arrange and then entirely failed or forgotten to deliver - and aside from anything else, even ignoring their track history, it really can't be acceptable that patients' treatment is delayed by a month because a doctor goes on holiday. If I go on holiday from my [insert mystery job here] and something needs to get signed off, my colleagues can sign it off for me after checking my notes. I appreciate that medicine is a rather more high-risk calling than [insert lowly job here] but I refuse to believe that in hospitals across the country no-one gets treatment in August because half the doctors are sunning themselves in the south of France.
Post-hospital (and post-coffee) we trudged back to my house, limping slightly (well, I was limping). Unfortunately, having to go all the way to the hospital for these injections means much more walking immediately afterwards, and my leg is quite sore for a few hours. By the evening though, I was fully recovered and even went dancing, which was excellent!
Thursday, 11 October 2012
Return of the Living Head
And I'm back! Apologies for another long delay. I have not forsaken you, dear reader. As you may remember, I started a new job in September and am somewhat busier than in my previous job - consequently, while I used to spend my lunchtimes peacefully penning delightful (and lengthy) blogposts, I now spend them staring blankly at stories about singing mice on BBC News and resting my poor beleaguered brain. I also moved house around the same time, and so instead of spending my evenings huddled at my desk typing furiously, I now spend them watching Heroes (curse you, housemates!).*
At my workplace this morning, however, I spent twenty minutes looking for a room that didn't exist. I didn't find it, but the experience has left me feeling the need to express myself. And that, dear reader, is where you come in.
However, as it's been so long I thought maybe instead of boring you all with a massive post catching up on everything that's happened, I would provide a quick summary on my progress with my various medical issues. So here goes:
Getting lanreotide injection: 100% complete
Getting funding for future injections: Data insufficient
Getting surgery date: 0% complete
Getting appointment with surgeon: 0% complete
Getting appointment with ENT re. sinusitis: 0% complete
Getting pissed off with all the delays: 100% complete
Writing a letter to the hospital to complain about it: 0% complete
Being cured: 0% complete
As you can see, great progress has not been made, although I have at least had a lanreotide injection now. It was a month late because things kept managing to go wrong at the hospital's end, which is frustrating enough, but worse is the fact that no-one ever bothered to update me on what was happening, which meant that I had to keep calling to try to find out what was going on.
Anyway, more on that another time, this is meant to be my super-quick return of the jedi from the deadi post. Adieu!
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* I should point out that I don't just watch Heroes at home. Since moving in, I have also gone stiltwalking, learned how to spin a plate on a stick, covered my own leg in henna tattoos and made the world's worst lemon drizzle cake. But Heroes has featured quite heavily.
At my workplace this morning, however, I spent twenty minutes looking for a room that didn't exist. I didn't find it, but the experience has left me feeling the need to express myself. And that, dear reader, is where you come in.
However, as it's been so long I thought maybe instead of boring you all with a massive post catching up on everything that's happened, I would provide a quick summary on my progress with my various medical issues. So here goes:
Getting lanreotide injection: 100% complete
Getting funding for future injections: Data insufficient
Getting surgery date: 0% complete
Getting appointment with surgeon: 0% complete
Getting appointment with ENT re. sinusitis: 0% complete
Getting pissed off with all the delays: 100% complete
Writing a letter to the hospital to complain about it: 0% complete
Being cured: 0% complete
As you can see, great progress has not been made, although I have at least had a lanreotide injection now. It was a month late because things kept managing to go wrong at the hospital's end, which is frustrating enough, but worse is the fact that no-one ever bothered to update me on what was happening, which meant that I had to keep calling to try to find out what was going on.
Anyway, more on that another time, this is meant to be my super-quick return of the jedi from the deadi post. Adieu!
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* I should point out that I don't just watch Heroes at home. Since moving in, I have also gone stiltwalking, learned how to spin a plate on a stick, covered my own leg in henna tattoos and made the world's worst lemon drizzle cake. But Heroes has featured quite heavily.
Thursday, 20 September 2012
The (Im)Patient Patient
I've always had a problem with the phrase "caught like a rat in a trap". I feel it could be improved upon. Rats are smart. Rats, once caught, sometimes make it out of traps.
But they never make it out of cats.
I currently feel much like a rat in a cat. It has now been six weeks since I had an injection of lanreotide. They only last for a month. During that month I did feel much better. At one point I ran upstairs and my heartrate barely increased, even though I hadn't taken my medication that day. For me, that is a medial coup indeed.
Alas, those halcyon days are gone. I'm back to taking two or three propranolol tablets a day to keep my heartrate as normal as possible. My moments of hypoglycaemia (brought on by the lanreotide injections) have been replaced by finding the six flights of stairs to my desk much more challenging in the morning.*
As you can imagine, I am chafing under this new and irritating regime, rendered all the more irritating by the fact that if my stupid former GP's surgery didn't have such nonsensical rules then I would have had my second injection by now and all would be hunky dory. Consequently, I'm calling the hospital every week to find out what's going on. I contact one of the nurses in the endocrine department, who is lovely, and then we have a mutual guilt festival, whereby she feels guilty for not being able to give me good news and I feel guilty for making her feel guilty considering that it's not her fault in the slightest.
I called last Wednesday, at the five-weeks-since-last-injection mark, and the nurse said that she could confirm all the paperwork had finally been submitted, and she seemed optimistic that it would get approved quickly and I'd get the injection soon. I called again today but the atmosphere of optimism had sadly been replaced with uncertainty over exactly how long this would take. Apparently, if your life is not immediately threatened by the lack of medication, then it doesn’t matter that you're symptomatic and the tumour in your head could well be growing happily like an evil, greedy mushroom.** You just have to be patient.
If ever I had wondered how the word "patient" had come to have two such different meanings - meaning in the first instance, a calm endurance of difficulty, and in the second, a person receiving medical treatment - I stopped wondering some time ago, because it seems that extreme feats of patience are required pretty much as soon as you become a patient.
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*I should point out that my desk is in an office which is accessed by climbing six flights of stairs and then walking along a corridor. I don't just have a desk sitting atop a massive staircase, although that would be quite awesome.
** I don't like mushrooms.
But they never make it out of cats.
I currently feel much like a rat in a cat. It has now been six weeks since I had an injection of lanreotide. They only last for a month. During that month I did feel much better. At one point I ran upstairs and my heartrate barely increased, even though I hadn't taken my medication that day. For me, that is a medial coup indeed.
Alas, those halcyon days are gone. I'm back to taking two or three propranolol tablets a day to keep my heartrate as normal as possible. My moments of hypoglycaemia (brought on by the lanreotide injections) have been replaced by finding the six flights of stairs to my desk much more challenging in the morning.*
As you can imagine, I am chafing under this new and irritating regime, rendered all the more irritating by the fact that if my stupid former GP's surgery didn't have such nonsensical rules then I would have had my second injection by now and all would be hunky dory. Consequently, I'm calling the hospital every week to find out what's going on. I contact one of the nurses in the endocrine department, who is lovely, and then we have a mutual guilt festival, whereby she feels guilty for not being able to give me good news and I feel guilty for making her feel guilty considering that it's not her fault in the slightest.
I called last Wednesday, at the five-weeks-since-last-injection mark, and the nurse said that she could confirm all the paperwork had finally been submitted, and she seemed optimistic that it would get approved quickly and I'd get the injection soon. I called again today but the atmosphere of optimism had sadly been replaced with uncertainty over exactly how long this would take. Apparently, if your life is not immediately threatened by the lack of medication, then it doesn’t matter that you're symptomatic and the tumour in your head could well be growing happily like an evil, greedy mushroom.** You just have to be patient.
If ever I had wondered how the word "patient" had come to have two such different meanings - meaning in the first instance, a calm endurance of difficulty, and in the second, a person receiving medical treatment - I stopped wondering some time ago, because it seems that extreme feats of patience are required pretty much as soon as you become a patient.
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*I should point out that my desk is in an office which is accessed by climbing six flights of stairs and then walking along a corridor. I don't just have a desk sitting atop a massive staircase, although that would be quite awesome.
** I don't like mushrooms.
Saturday, 8 September 2012
Denied
My god! Apparently I haven't published a post since the 31st of August and it's now the 8th September! I am well behind schedule. In fairness, in the past week I have been to a wedding, started a new job and moved house so I feel like I have some kind of excuse for my laxness. On the other hand, excuse schmoose! Shame on me.
I do in fact have an update on my health situation, although not a particularly jolly one. Regular readers will remember that the NHS is proving remarkably loath to pay for the treatment that fixes me. I need regular injections, one every month, which normalise my hormone levels and make me feel much more chirpy, and also possibly stop the tumour growing which would be A Good Thing. They also cost about £750 a pop.
I got the first injection just over a month ago. The hospital then had a month to wrangle who was going to pay for the next one. I was booked in to go back on Wednesday morning for the next injection. Surprise, surprise, on Tuesday afternoon I got a phone call from one of the nurses informing me that they had not sorted out the funding issue and it would be "one or two weeks" before I could have the next one. Past experience would suggest that "one or two weeks" could be anything up to several months.
It's very frustrating, because the injections make such a difference to my symptoms. I massively cut down on the amount of medication I was taking for my heart, to the point where some days I didn't need it at all. I was sleeping better, my nails were better, my eyelashes got thicker (weirdly when my thyroid hormone levels are too high they tend to thin out!), everything was improving. And now I just have to wait, slowly feeling worse and worse all the time.
It's hard not to feel annoyed at my new GP for starting this whole mess by refusing to prescribe it despite letters from the hospital asking her to. I know that she was just playing by the book. But if the tumour in my head goes untreated and keeps growing and makes me more ill it's just more hassle for the NHS in the long run. I really don't care who pays for it. But can SOMEONE please get it sorted?
I do in fact have an update on my health situation, although not a particularly jolly one. Regular readers will remember that the NHS is proving remarkably loath to pay for the treatment that fixes me. I need regular injections, one every month, which normalise my hormone levels and make me feel much more chirpy, and also possibly stop the tumour growing which would be A Good Thing. They also cost about £750 a pop.
I got the first injection just over a month ago. The hospital then had a month to wrangle who was going to pay for the next one. I was booked in to go back on Wednesday morning for the next injection. Surprise, surprise, on Tuesday afternoon I got a phone call from one of the nurses informing me that they had not sorted out the funding issue and it would be "one or two weeks" before I could have the next one. Past experience would suggest that "one or two weeks" could be anything up to several months.
It's very frustrating, because the injections make such a difference to my symptoms. I massively cut down on the amount of medication I was taking for my heart, to the point where some days I didn't need it at all. I was sleeping better, my nails were better, my eyelashes got thicker (weirdly when my thyroid hormone levels are too high they tend to thin out!), everything was improving. And now I just have to wait, slowly feeling worse and worse all the time.
It's hard not to feel annoyed at my new GP for starting this whole mess by refusing to prescribe it despite letters from the hospital asking her to. I know that she was just playing by the book. But if the tumour in my head goes untreated and keeps growing and makes me more ill it's just more hassle for the NHS in the long run. I really don't care who pays for it. But can SOMEONE please get it sorted?
Wednesday, 15 August 2012
Girl with Acromegaly Sues NHS
A story broke some time ago about a young lady with acromegaly who sued the NHS, and won. I've been meaning to write about her for a while but I wanted to take the time to create an interesting and informative post contrasting her case with that of Kane Gorny. Alas, I have not had the time, so you'll just have to deal with a dull and uninformative post instead. Hurrah!
The story is this: Kate Woodward, an aspiring actress, developed acromegaly (i.e. a pituitary tumour secreting growth hormone, which lead to uncontrolled growth of her body) as a child, which went untreated between 2001 and 2005 as medics failed to spot the condition. She attained a final height of 6'5" aged 20, and sued the NHS for £2 million. She was awarded compensation of £1.3m.
Incidentally, the award for "least sensitive headline about this story" goes to Healthcare Today UK, which went with "Freak Growth Woman Sues NHS".*
Nice.
Her case for being awarded this level of compensation was that, as a result of her condition being untreated for so long:
- Her height and "ugliness" meant that she could no longer go into a career as an actress.
- She has psychological difficulties and feels like a "freak" because of her condition.
- She has significant problems with her bones, knees and teeth, and cannot buy normal-sized clothes.
- The condition affected her childhood, schooling and friendships.
And, most significantly:
- She wishes to receive all future treatment in the private sector.
Now, not long after this story was first brought to my attention (by a colleague, thank you!) I noticed that it had also popped up as a topic of discussion on the Pituitary Foundation's forum. For those of you who don't subscribe, one member created a poll entited something like "Should Kate Woodward be ashamed of herself?" The results of the poll were overwhelmingly that she should (although in fairness by "overwhelmingly", I mean "there were four votes in total").
Why the anger? Surely she has a fairly good case, right? Undoubtedly, when a doctor is presented with a girl who measured 5'9" at just eleven years old and keeps growing, you'd hope that it wouldn't take four years to just Google it and think "hmm, maybe we should rule out acromegaly". Although we can't know that faster treatment would have effected a cure, it might have controlled or reduced the symptoms. She will have to live with injections and monitoring and joint problems and feeling self-conscious for her whole life.
BUT.
The problem is that this is not, actually, an unusual case - at least, not within the magical world of pituitary tumours. If every person with acromegaly decided to sue the NHS for delayed diagnosis, it would be one hell of a bonus day for lawyers. If you threw in people with other often-missed pituitary conditions like Cushing's Disease and TSHoma, it would probably result in a sudden UK lawyer shortage as they all retired to small Caribbean islands. If you based the level of compensation awarded on the number of years the condition went undiagnosed, the small Caribbean islands would probably reinvent themselves as world financial hubs.
I exagerate. But the mean length of time from onset of symptoms to diagnosis of acromegaly is, according to this MedScape article, around 12 years. Even if that estimate is too high, the point is that pituitary tumour conditions can be hard to diagnose, and they are often missed because they're rare enough that doctors don't see them often, and often don't expect to see them either. Four years to diagnose a patient with acromegaly is, sadly, not uncommon. I first showed symptoms of my TSH-secreting pituitary tumour aged 17, and I didn't get a diagnosis until I was 22. (In case you're bad at maths, that's five years). Even after my superfast heartrate made it clear that Something Was Wrong, it took a year to work out what that something was.
So if there's a slight lack of sympathy from other acromegalomaniacs,** it could be because they're thinking "Damn, £2m! Wish I'd thought of that."
But I doubt it. And I'm not just saying that because they're bigger than me.***
Now I want to note right off the bat that where there is evidence of medical negligence or it takes a long time to get a diagnosis, you should complain. Vociferously. You should complain in the hope that procedures can be improved. Otherwise there's nothing to stop future patients from suffering through the same tortuous process to find out what's wrong with them. But there's a difference between seeing a problem, taking a complaint as far as necessary to fix that problem for future patients, and just suing to get as much as you can out of them. Through the normal complaints process, the hospital in question offered Miss Woodward compensation of £700k, no court appearance required. If she lives to the age of 90, that would be £10,000 medical expenses covered every year. Additionally, according to the Daily Mail, which I personally take with a pinch of salt and under the supervision of a doctor, the hospital trust had already spent £288,000 on Miss Woodward for "treatment, dental care, holidays and special footwear".
Even the £500k difference between what she was offered and what the court awarded is a big chunk of money. £500k that could have gone towards treating other patients. I need somatostatin analogue injections (probably much like those Miss Woodward takes), and if you've been reading this blog lately, you'll know that it is proving slightly tricky to persuade someone to fund them. £500k could pay for 666-and-a-bit doses of those injections. Which doesn't sound like that much, until you realise that each dose lasts for a month, so £500k worth of injections would last me for fifty-five years. And six months. Assuming I needed them continuously. And of course by that point I would be 79-and-a-half, so chances are I could be dead by then anyway.
And here's the thing. If the NHS messes up and, as a result, you end up incurring further costs in your daily life (eg. you're a professional tap dancer going into hospital for an appendectomy, and you wake up with a leg missing) then yep, you should get compensation and if they won't agree to pay it, sue them with my blessing and encouragement. If the clinical negligence of your child at birth leads to brain damage which will affect that child for their entire life, then sue for the money needed to support them. And if/when the NHS messes up so badly that it becomes a danger to other patients, and you follow through that complaints process and nothing changes, sue them until they sit up and pay attention and mend their ways.
But I am somewhat uncomfortable with suing the NHS for the loss of a career that did not yet exist, and for the costs of having exactly the same treatment as the NHS provides, but done privately. (I'm also intrigued by the concept, since she presumably did not have private health insurance before diagnosis and consequently insurers would be unlikely to cover her pre-existing condition?). I've had an MRI scan done by a private provider and done by the NHS and the experience was almost exactly the same - except the private hospital was a lot harder to get to on public transport.
I guess in some way I think that when the NHS messes up, part of the compensation is the NHS. The very fact that you live in a country where you don't have to worry about the cost of healthcare means that when the NHS makes a mistake, it - not you - ends up bearing any increased costs of your care as a result of its mistake. Perhaps in some countries when a patient gets a hospital-acquired infection, their bill from the hospital is increased - but in the UK, if a hospital gives you an infection, it has to foot the bill to try and fix it.
But it also means that when you sue an NHS hospital in the UK, you're not taking lobster off the table of a fat cat investor (well... not yet... comments about Mr Lansley on a postcard, please). You are taking money away from that hospital. Any sensible hospital trust will have a big old stash of contingency fund to cover the cost of lawsuits, but I still confess I'm uncomfortable with the idea of suing the NHS for anything less than an ironclad reason, because that money could be put to better use. It could be used to help treat someone just like you.
I don't think Kate Woodward is a bad person, and I don't think she should be ashamed of herself. I simply don't have sufficient details to form an opinion on this case, and she may well be entirely justified. But she sparks off an interesting debate. That's my opinion. What's yours?
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*I noticed Jon Danzig, a journalist with acromegaly, took them to task for this in the comments section of the article, good on him!
** I don't know what the collective noun for "a group of people with acromegaly" is, but it should really be this.
***Common misconception: people with acromegaly only become very tall if the condition develops during childhood/adolescence. If it develops in adulthood, it will lead to bone and soft tissue growth but usually won't increase height much, if at all.
The story is this: Kate Woodward, an aspiring actress, developed acromegaly (i.e. a pituitary tumour secreting growth hormone, which lead to uncontrolled growth of her body) as a child, which went untreated between 2001 and 2005 as medics failed to spot the condition. She attained a final height of 6'5" aged 20, and sued the NHS for £2 million. She was awarded compensation of £1.3m.
Incidentally, the award for "least sensitive headline about this story" goes to Healthcare Today UK, which went with "Freak Growth Woman Sues NHS".*
Nice.
Her case for being awarded this level of compensation was that, as a result of her condition being untreated for so long:
- Her height and "ugliness" meant that she could no longer go into a career as an actress.
- She has psychological difficulties and feels like a "freak" because of her condition.
- She has significant problems with her bones, knees and teeth, and cannot buy normal-sized clothes.
- The condition affected her childhood, schooling and friendships.
And, most significantly:
- She wishes to receive all future treatment in the private sector.
Now, not long after this story was first brought to my attention (by a colleague, thank you!) I noticed that it had also popped up as a topic of discussion on the Pituitary Foundation's forum. For those of you who don't subscribe, one member created a poll entited something like "Should Kate Woodward be ashamed of herself?" The results of the poll were overwhelmingly that she should (although in fairness by "overwhelmingly", I mean "there were four votes in total").
Why the anger? Surely she has a fairly good case, right? Undoubtedly, when a doctor is presented with a girl who measured 5'9" at just eleven years old and keeps growing, you'd hope that it wouldn't take four years to just Google it and think "hmm, maybe we should rule out acromegaly". Although we can't know that faster treatment would have effected a cure, it might have controlled or reduced the symptoms. She will have to live with injections and monitoring and joint problems and feeling self-conscious for her whole life.
BUT.
The problem is that this is not, actually, an unusual case - at least, not within the magical world of pituitary tumours. If every person with acromegaly decided to sue the NHS for delayed diagnosis, it would be one hell of a bonus day for lawyers. If you threw in people with other often-missed pituitary conditions like Cushing's Disease and TSHoma, it would probably result in a sudden UK lawyer shortage as they all retired to small Caribbean islands. If you based the level of compensation awarded on the number of years the condition went undiagnosed, the small Caribbean islands would probably reinvent themselves as world financial hubs.
I exagerate. But the mean length of time from onset of symptoms to diagnosis of acromegaly is, according to this MedScape article, around 12 years. Even if that estimate is too high, the point is that pituitary tumour conditions can be hard to diagnose, and they are often missed because they're rare enough that doctors don't see them often, and often don't expect to see them either. Four years to diagnose a patient with acromegaly is, sadly, not uncommon. I first showed symptoms of my TSH-secreting pituitary tumour aged 17, and I didn't get a diagnosis until I was 22. (In case you're bad at maths, that's five years). Even after my superfast heartrate made it clear that Something Was Wrong, it took a year to work out what that something was.
So if there's a slight lack of sympathy from other acromegalomaniacs,** it could be because they're thinking "Damn, £2m! Wish I'd thought of that."
But I doubt it. And I'm not just saying that because they're bigger than me.***
Now I want to note right off the bat that where there is evidence of medical negligence or it takes a long time to get a diagnosis, you should complain. Vociferously. You should complain in the hope that procedures can be improved. Otherwise there's nothing to stop future patients from suffering through the same tortuous process to find out what's wrong with them. But there's a difference between seeing a problem, taking a complaint as far as necessary to fix that problem for future patients, and just suing to get as much as you can out of them. Through the normal complaints process, the hospital in question offered Miss Woodward compensation of £700k, no court appearance required. If she lives to the age of 90, that would be £10,000 medical expenses covered every year. Additionally, according to the Daily Mail, which I personally take with a pinch of salt and under the supervision of a doctor, the hospital trust had already spent £288,000 on Miss Woodward for "treatment, dental care, holidays and special footwear".
Even the £500k difference between what she was offered and what the court awarded is a big chunk of money. £500k that could have gone towards treating other patients. I need somatostatin analogue injections (probably much like those Miss Woodward takes), and if you've been reading this blog lately, you'll know that it is proving slightly tricky to persuade someone to fund them. £500k could pay for 666-and-a-bit doses of those injections. Which doesn't sound like that much, until you realise that each dose lasts for a month, so £500k worth of injections would last me for fifty-five years. And six months. Assuming I needed them continuously. And of course by that point I would be 79-and-a-half, so chances are I could be dead by then anyway.
And here's the thing. If the NHS messes up and, as a result, you end up incurring further costs in your daily life (eg. you're a professional tap dancer going into hospital for an appendectomy, and you wake up with a leg missing) then yep, you should get compensation and if they won't agree to pay it, sue them with my blessing and encouragement. If the clinical negligence of your child at birth leads to brain damage which will affect that child for their entire life, then sue for the money needed to support them. And if/when the NHS messes up so badly that it becomes a danger to other patients, and you follow through that complaints process and nothing changes, sue them until they sit up and pay attention and mend their ways.
But I am somewhat uncomfortable with suing the NHS for the loss of a career that did not yet exist, and for the costs of having exactly the same treatment as the NHS provides, but done privately. (I'm also intrigued by the concept, since she presumably did not have private health insurance before diagnosis and consequently insurers would be unlikely to cover her pre-existing condition?). I've had an MRI scan done by a private provider and done by the NHS and the experience was almost exactly the same - except the private hospital was a lot harder to get to on public transport.
I guess in some way I think that when the NHS messes up, part of the compensation is the NHS. The very fact that you live in a country where you don't have to worry about the cost of healthcare means that when the NHS makes a mistake, it - not you - ends up bearing any increased costs of your care as a result of its mistake. Perhaps in some countries when a patient gets a hospital-acquired infection, their bill from the hospital is increased - but in the UK, if a hospital gives you an infection, it has to foot the bill to try and fix it.
But it also means that when you sue an NHS hospital in the UK, you're not taking lobster off the table of a fat cat investor (well... not yet... comments about Mr Lansley on a postcard, please). You are taking money away from that hospital. Any sensible hospital trust will have a big old stash of contingency fund to cover the cost of lawsuits, but I still confess I'm uncomfortable with the idea of suing the NHS for anything less than an ironclad reason, because that money could be put to better use. It could be used to help treat someone just like you.
I don't think Kate Woodward is a bad person, and I don't think she should be ashamed of herself. I simply don't have sufficient details to form an opinion on this case, and she may well be entirely justified. But she sparks off an interesting debate. That's my opinion. What's yours?
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*I noticed Jon Danzig, a journalist with acromegaly, took them to task for this in the comments section of the article, good on him!
** I don't know what the collective noun for "a group of people with acromegaly" is, but it should really be this.
***Common misconception: people with acromegaly only become very tall if the condition develops during childhood/adolescence. If it develops in adulthood, it will lead to bone and soft tissue growth but usually won't increase height much, if at all.
Tuesday, 14 August 2012
Hypoglycaemia time!
Had my first bout of post-lanreotide hypoglycaemia today. It's silly, you'd really think I would be used to handling it by now but it still catches me unawares now and again. Fortunately I had a delicious and nutritious dried fruit bar with me to help out, although it's not quite as good as Starburst. Mmm, Starburst.*
In other news, since having my Somatuline Autogel injection last wednesday I have been feeling rather better; I've been able to take fewer beta blockers because my heartrate has been a little slower, which has been reeeally nice - and also slightly surprising, because my heart is usually extremely slow to react to hormone changes, as far as I can tell. Plus it has been noticeably easier to go to sleep and to get up in the mornings which oh my goodness is seriously appreciated.
Also I was reading a newspaper article about the Olympics and I got a little teary-eyed, so I guess the "overemotional" aspect of these injections has also jumped in to play. People who know me in real life, you have been warned! Don't show me pictures of sad animals or I might drown you in my tears.
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* No, I'm not sponsored by Starburst. I'm just hoping if I mention them enough they'll take pity on me and send me some free Starburst.
Mmm, Starburst.
Also I was reading a newspaper article about the Olympics and I got a little teary-eyed, so I guess the "overemotional" aspect of these injections has also jumped in to play. People who know me in real life, you have been warned! Don't show me pictures of sad animals or I might drown you in my tears.
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* No, I'm not sponsored by Starburst. I'm just hoping if I mention them enough they'll take pity on me and send me some free Starburst.
Mmm, Starburst.
Thursday, 9 August 2012
Head = achy
I have had such a pituitary headache today! Right in the middle of my face. I'm hoping that's because the tumour is being battered mercilessly by the lanreotide zooming around in my system.
Wednesday, 8 August 2012
The Problem WIth Biliary Sludge
Good news at last! The lovely endocrine nurse at the hospital got it sorted and I had my Somatuline Autogel injection this afternoon. Hurrah! They still haven't worked out exactly how my next injection will be funded, but they've got four weeks to do so, and I'm already booked in for the next appointment so I will be turning up expecting it to be very much All Sorted Out by then.
The lanreotide injections do have a bunch of possible side effects, my nurse gave me the list. It is a long list so I just picked a few of my favourites:
- biliary dilatation (don't know what that is but it sounds unpleasant)
- alopecia (because so far my hair just hasn't been falling out enough)
- sinus bradycardia a.k.a. slow heartbeat (YES PLEASE)
- general physical weakness (as compared to my usual muscular state)
I've had these lanreotide injections before, so I know that for me they usually make me nauseous for the first couple of days. Then after that they tend to make me quite prone to bouts of hypoglycaemia so I have to carry around sugary things (usually I'm bad and carry sweets but this time I have invested in some tasty dried fruit). Some people get gallstones and diarrhoea and headaches and all sorts so I guess I am fairly lucky.
I was chatting to my endocrinologist about going back on the injections and he asked if I had any bad side effects so I explained the above and said that the last time I went on the injections I read online that eating an extremely low fat diet for the first few days after having an injection can help reduce side effects, and that since doing so I found I didn't get so nauseated.
I also mentioned how the first time I had them, I was led to expect they would be so awful that it was actually kind of a pleasant surprise just to feel sick for a few days. But obviously they had to tell everyone it might be as bad as the worst case scenario, just in case.
He nodded sagely and said, "Ah yes, the old biliary sludge problem."
I had no idea what he was talking about, although it did occur to me that Biliary Sludge sounds like the name of a character from Dickens.*
Maybe that's just me.
As it goes, it turns out that biliary sludge is the precursor to developing gallstones if you're on this medication, it's like lots of teeny gallstones which build up and slosh around in the pancreas. It's caused by a low turnover of bile in the pancreas (which this medication can cause) and it can be improved by eating a low fat diet. But you're much more at risk if you're overweight or obese, so hopefully I should be fine.
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*He would have many jowls, and a faded red velvet coat, and his whiskers would be full of yesterday's dinner.
The lanreotide injections do have a bunch of possible side effects, my nurse gave me the list. It is a long list so I just picked a few of my favourites:
- biliary dilatation (don't know what that is but it sounds unpleasant)
- alopecia (because so far my hair just hasn't been falling out enough)
- sinus bradycardia a.k.a. slow heartbeat (YES PLEASE)
- general physical weakness (as compared to my usual muscular state)
I've had these lanreotide injections before, so I know that for me they usually make me nauseous for the first couple of days. Then after that they tend to make me quite prone to bouts of hypoglycaemia so I have to carry around sugary things (usually I'm bad and carry sweets but this time I have invested in some tasty dried fruit). Some people get gallstones and diarrhoea and headaches and all sorts so I guess I am fairly lucky.
I was chatting to my endocrinologist about going back on the injections and he asked if I had any bad side effects so I explained the above and said that the last time I went on the injections I read online that eating an extremely low fat diet for the first few days after having an injection can help reduce side effects, and that since doing so I found I didn't get so nauseated.
I also mentioned how the first time I had them, I was led to expect they would be so awful that it was actually kind of a pleasant surprise just to feel sick for a few days. But obviously they had to tell everyone it might be as bad as the worst case scenario, just in case.
He nodded sagely and said, "Ah yes, the old biliary sludge problem."
I had no idea what he was talking about, although it did occur to me that Biliary Sludge sounds like the name of a character from Dickens.*
Maybe that's just me.
As it goes, it turns out that biliary sludge is the precursor to developing gallstones if you're on this medication, it's like lots of teeny gallstones which build up and slosh around in the pancreas. It's caused by a low turnover of bile in the pancreas (which this medication can cause) and it can be improved by eating a low fat diet. But you're much more at risk if you're overweight or obese, so hopefully I should be fine.
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*He would have many jowls, and a faded red velvet coat, and his whiskers would be full of yesterday's dinner.
Tuesday, 7 August 2012
Please Sir, Can I Have My Medication?
Regular readers will remember that earlier in the year I was lamenting the fact that my stupid GP's forced me to change GP surgery after I moved a few minutes down the road, due to their weird practice boundaries. At first I thought this was just Massively Inconvenient And Stupid, but in fact it's gone on to have far more serious ramifications.
At present I am thyrotoxic; I have way too much thyroid hormone sloshing around my body, because my pituitary tumour is producing a hormone which is overstimulating my thyroid gland. It has been getting noticeably worse recently; over the past few weeks I have had to up my dose of the beta blockers I take to control my excessively fast heartbeat from 1 - 2 per day to 2 or more frequently 3 per day. I'm noticeably more jittery, I get shaky hands sometimes, I'm getting much more tired more easily. I feel pretty rubbish right now.
The medical universe strongly agree that I need to go on lanreotide injections to stop the tumour producing thyroid stimulating hormone immediately. Like right now. Like actually we should probably have put you back on them at the start of July.
They do not agree on who should pay for it.
My injections are expensive; they cost about £750 a pop (one injection lasts for four weeks, so they cost about £27 a day). My old GP noted that they were more expensive than uranium, but he went on and prescribed them anyway.
My new GP noted that they were more expensive than uranium, and that they are now on our PCT Red List.
The Red List is a list of drugs that should only be prescribed by a specialist, not a general practitioner. It has been suggested that more PCTs are red-listing more drugs to make savings cuts. I could not possibly comment on that. What I do know is that despite the fact that my specialist endocrinologist requested my new GP prescribe them, this is apparently not enough, and after consulting with the PCT (primary care trust) she was unable to do so. The problem is complicated by the fact that the long-acting form of the drug I need (Somatuline Autogel) is not technically licensed for my condition (TSHoma). The older, short-acting form is licensed, but it only lasts ten days, and who wants injections every ten days? Essentially this is just wrangling, but my GP doesn't want to be held responsible for prescribing an unlicensed drug for me, should anything go wrong. She is playing by the book, which is a stance I can sympathise with.
Fortunately the day after I first found out about this issue, I went into the hospital for an appointment and informed my various endocrinologists of the problem. They immediately requested that the specialist nurses order in the first dose of the drug for me so that I could have it administered as soon as possible.
The nurses already have the syringe full of delicious lanreotide. It came in yesterday.
I could have had the injection yesterday. I could have had it today. I could even have it tomorrow, but I don't know if I will - because even though the first dose has been bought and paid for and is SITTING IN A FRIDGE WAITING FOR ME, they are wrangling about who should pay for the next dose.
The next dose.
WHICH I DON'T NEED TO HAVE FOR FOUR WEEKS.
The nurse was super apologetic when I called up to find out what the heck was going on (as I had been told I would probably have it yesterday or today but hadn't heard anything) and she's basically spent the whole afternoon trying to find out if she can just give me the damn injection already and work out where the next one is coming from afterwards.
There is no question that the NHS wants me to have this drug. It's the drug I need, I've had it before, plenty of other patients with my condition have had it before, it works, the licensing issue is really just a wrangle and they reckon the drug company is hoping to get it licensed for TSHoma soon anyway. All the people actually involved in my care want me to have this drug as soon as possible because being this thyrotoxic is Not A Good Thing. But no-one wants to pay for it. Which is ridiculous because it's public damn money. If the hospital pays for it, if my GP's pay for it, it doesn't matter - the net effect on the public purse is exactly the same.*
So please can I just have the damn injection already?
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*Although in fact, it would probably be cheaper to the NHS overall for me to have it administered by a nurse at my GP's practice rather than an expensive and specialist endocrine nurse at the hospital whose time is probably more valuable.**
** And more expensive if my thyroid gland goes into overdrive while I'm hanging around waiting and sends me into a coma.***
***Very unlikely but actually not entirely impossible.
At present I am thyrotoxic; I have way too much thyroid hormone sloshing around my body, because my pituitary tumour is producing a hormone which is overstimulating my thyroid gland. It has been getting noticeably worse recently; over the past few weeks I have had to up my dose of the beta blockers I take to control my excessively fast heartbeat from 1 - 2 per day to 2 or more frequently 3 per day. I'm noticeably more jittery, I get shaky hands sometimes, I'm getting much more tired more easily. I feel pretty rubbish right now.
The medical universe strongly agree that I need to go on lanreotide injections to stop the tumour producing thyroid stimulating hormone immediately. Like right now. Like actually we should probably have put you back on them at the start of July.
They do not agree on who should pay for it.
My injections are expensive; they cost about £750 a pop (one injection lasts for four weeks, so they cost about £27 a day). My old GP noted that they were more expensive than uranium, but he went on and prescribed them anyway.
My new GP noted that they were more expensive than uranium, and that they are now on our PCT Red List.
The Red List is a list of drugs that should only be prescribed by a specialist, not a general practitioner. It has been suggested that more PCTs are red-listing more drugs to make savings cuts. I could not possibly comment on that. What I do know is that despite the fact that my specialist endocrinologist requested my new GP prescribe them, this is apparently not enough, and after consulting with the PCT (primary care trust) she was unable to do so. The problem is complicated by the fact that the long-acting form of the drug I need (Somatuline Autogel) is not technically licensed for my condition (TSHoma). The older, short-acting form is licensed, but it only lasts ten days, and who wants injections every ten days? Essentially this is just wrangling, but my GP doesn't want to be held responsible for prescribing an unlicensed drug for me, should anything go wrong. She is playing by the book, which is a stance I can sympathise with.
Fortunately the day after I first found out about this issue, I went into the hospital for an appointment and informed my various endocrinologists of the problem. They immediately requested that the specialist nurses order in the first dose of the drug for me so that I could have it administered as soon as possible.
The nurses already have the syringe full of delicious lanreotide. It came in yesterday.
I could have had the injection yesterday. I could have had it today. I could even have it tomorrow, but I don't know if I will - because even though the first dose has been bought and paid for and is SITTING IN A FRIDGE WAITING FOR ME, they are wrangling about who should pay for the next dose.
The next dose.
WHICH I DON'T NEED TO HAVE FOR FOUR WEEKS.
The nurse was super apologetic when I called up to find out what the heck was going on (as I had been told I would probably have it yesterday or today but hadn't heard anything) and she's basically spent the whole afternoon trying to find out if she can just give me the damn injection already and work out where the next one is coming from afterwards.
There is no question that the NHS wants me to have this drug. It's the drug I need, I've had it before, plenty of other patients with my condition have had it before, it works, the licensing issue is really just a wrangle and they reckon the drug company is hoping to get it licensed for TSHoma soon anyway. All the people actually involved in my care want me to have this drug as soon as possible because being this thyrotoxic is Not A Good Thing. But no-one wants to pay for it. Which is ridiculous because it's public damn money. If the hospital pays for it, if my GP's pay for it, it doesn't matter - the net effect on the public purse is exactly the same.*
So please can I just have the damn injection already?
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*Although in fact, it would probably be cheaper to the NHS overall for me to have it administered by a nurse at my GP's practice rather than an expensive and specialist endocrine nurse at the hospital whose time is probably more valuable.**
** And more expensive if my thyroid gland goes into overdrive while I'm hanging around waiting and sends me into a coma.***
***Very unlikely but actually not entirely impossible.
Wednesday, 25 July 2012
I Need More Surgery
I just had a phone call from the hospital and it's official: I'm going to be having more pituitary surgery. The results of the tests I had at the beginning of the month show that I'm still "thyrotoxic" as they call it (my thyroid hormone levels are too high) - which to be honest I could have told them myself, as I'm still having symptoms aplenty. The sad news though is that they think the pituitary tumour has grown since my previous MRI scan. My last scan was in March. For it to have noticeably grown in just three months is kind of worrying to me (and also makes me slightly more pissed off that they stopped my injections for four months when I was told it would be half that time - the tumour had been stable while I was on the injections...).
So, that sucks. I am reeeeeally not looking forward to more surgery. Last time I didn't know what to expect; this time I know exactly how many blood tests and needles and rubbish things will be involved, plus oh god when they take out the bandages from your nose! I believe it's slightly more risky the second time around, plus I'm going up against the same odds of ending up with diabetes inspidus/hypothyroidism/addisons disease/other pituitary fail.
I am also slightly concerned because I have had a slight sinus infection since last August thanks to the surgery and it just occurred to me that I don't know if they will even be able to operate unless they get rid of that first?
Here are the bright sides:
- Surgery at least carries with it the possibility of cure.
- I am marginally more in shape than I was last time around, so you never know - my crappy muscles might recover a little faster
- More time off work? (Admittedly, it's just time off to lie on the sofa complaining, but still)
- This time I will remember to ask about painkillers that I am not allergic to and am able to take.
- This time I will take photos in hospital and show them to YOU, dear reader.
So, here we go. Brain Surgery, Round 2!
So, that sucks. I am reeeeeally not looking forward to more surgery. Last time I didn't know what to expect; this time I know exactly how many blood tests and needles and rubbish things will be involved, plus oh god when they take out the bandages from your nose! I believe it's slightly more risky the second time around, plus I'm going up against the same odds of ending up with diabetes inspidus/hypothyroidism/addisons disease/other pituitary fail.
I am also slightly concerned because I have had a slight sinus infection since last August thanks to the surgery and it just occurred to me that I don't know if they will even be able to operate unless they get rid of that first?
Here are the bright sides:
- Surgery at least carries with it the possibility of cure.
- I am marginally more in shape than I was last time around, so you never know - my crappy muscles might recover a little faster
- More time off work? (Admittedly, it's just time off to lie on the sofa complaining, but still)
- This time I will remember to ask about painkillers that I am not allergic to and am able to take.
- This time I will take photos in hospital and show them to YOU, dear reader.
So, here we go. Brain Surgery, Round 2!
Tuesday, 24 July 2012
Acromegaly Drug Trial - Oral Octreolin
I noticed on the Pituitary Foundation's website that a drug trial is recruiting for acromegaly patients. It's the phase 3 testing of oral octreolin, taking place at centres across the UK, including Oxford, Manchester and London.
This trial is a pretty exciting prospect! Currently, the somatostatin analogues which are used to treat acromegaly are only available in an injectable form, both as daily injections and in a long-lasting preparation that's injected once a month. This means regular visits to the nurse, plus all the hassle of ordering and storing the prescription, as the drug has to be kept refrigerated. Being able to simply take two pills every day would be so much more convenient (not to mention less painful... those needles are huge), especially for patients who travel or move around a lot.
The biopharma company carrying out the trial is Chiasma, a company specialising in turning injectable drugs into oral formulations. Octreolin is their lead product, but their website indicates they're also working on a drug to treat complications of chronic kidney disease.
It appears Chiasma are conducting clinical trials on the use of octreolin to treat neuroendocrine tumours. In addition to this and acromegaly, octreotide (the injectable somatostatin analogue that octreolin emulates) is used to treat carcinoid syndrome, TSHomas/thyrotropinomas and an extremely rare tumour called a VIPoma. VIP actually stands for vasoactive intestinal peptide, a hormone which the tumour produces in excess, but these tumours are so rare - estimated annual incidence of one per ten million people - that the other meaning of VIP is strangely apposite. A press release from Chiasma also suggested that octreolin was being investigated as a treatment for portal hypertension. So if octreolin is found to be as safe and effective as octreotide, it could benefit people suffering from a whole range of conditions.
This trial is a pretty exciting prospect! Currently, the somatostatin analogues which are used to treat acromegaly are only available in an injectable form, both as daily injections and in a long-lasting preparation that's injected once a month. This means regular visits to the nurse, plus all the hassle of ordering and storing the prescription, as the drug has to be kept refrigerated. Being able to simply take two pills every day would be so much more convenient (not to mention less painful... those needles are huge), especially for patients who travel or move around a lot.
The biopharma company carrying out the trial is Chiasma, a company specialising in turning injectable drugs into oral formulations. Octreolin is their lead product, but their website indicates they're also working on a drug to treat complications of chronic kidney disease.
It appears Chiasma are conducting clinical trials on the use of octreolin to treat neuroendocrine tumours. In addition to this and acromegaly, octreotide (the injectable somatostatin analogue that octreolin emulates) is used to treat carcinoid syndrome, TSHomas/thyrotropinomas and an extremely rare tumour called a VIPoma. VIP actually stands for vasoactive intestinal peptide, a hormone which the tumour produces in excess, but these tumours are so rare - estimated annual incidence of one per ten million people - that the other meaning of VIP is strangely apposite. A press release from Chiasma also suggested that octreolin was being investigated as a treatment for portal hypertension. So if octreolin is found to be as safe and effective as octreotide, it could benefit people suffering from a whole range of conditions.
Saturday, 16 June 2012
A Lesson From My Former Landlady: Part 1
I was originally going to name this post something else, but in deference to my readers who have delicate constitutions, I decided against it. Anyway. While it will be something of a massive rant, it's actually a good way of illuminating a topic that I've been wanting to write about for a while.
crazy bitch June - gave me notice in January that she'd need me to move out in June because she wanted to redecorate the room I was in. This seemed a suspect excuse, as my room was the only part of the house not in need of decorating, but no matter; I didn't have the chance to discuss the issue with her because she took the rather peculiar decision not to tell me in person, but to wait until I went on a weekend away and then slip a note about this under my door. I started to look for a new place almost immediately, because I knew I would have exams in June and didn't need the stress of moving out at the same time.
In March, I found a lovely new house nearby and gave her my notice. She said that this was fine as it didn't matter to her when the room was redecorated. I tried to organise a time to go through the inventory and get my deposit back, but she was strangely cagey about it. I offered to go through it with her on the day I was moving out, having just cleaned the room with my mum, but she refused. After moving out, again I kept trying to arrange a time to go through it all with her but she continued putting me off until I suddenly received a text message ultimatum that it had to be on that Friday (a day which I had already informed her I wouldn't be able to do) because she had someone moving in the next day.*
I spoke with my manager and was able to leave work early that day in order to go and see her, despite the fact that things were super busy that week and I knew that I would have to work over the weekend to make up the time I lost by leaving early. So off I trotted to my old house.
The instant I got there, things seemed strange. I was let in, but although I had explained to June that it was an awkward time and I would be in a rush, she seemed surprised that I was in a hurry and she stomped upstairs, obviously in a bad mood.
June was always a shouty woman. When her kids were staying, there was shouting every evening - about eating dinner, about singing lessons, about baths, you name it. What I was not prepared for, however, was for her to turn her shoutyness on me practically as soon as we stepped into my former bedroom. She pointed to a laughably small build-up of scale on the bathroom tap and had a go about it - then when I pointed out that it had always been there, she claimed that if there had been scale on the tap, she would have written it down in the inventory. I pointed out that this was not the case, as there were various holes in the walls and floor, the broken curtain fitting etc. which were not in the inventory - seeing as the inventory is a list of the room's furniture, not a detailed description of every aspect of its decor. She yelled that the holes in the floor were "not the problem" and continued shouting, accusing me of allowing a terrible limescale build-up in the shower, "ruining" a bookshelf, leaving the room dusty, etc. etc.
She accused me of not cleaning the room at all before I left; I pointed out that a) not only has she actually seen me going upstairs and downstairs with mops and buckets and cleaning products on the day I moved out but I had also spoken to her about which mop she would rather I use to clean the floor, and b) because she refused to do the inventory on the day, obviously the room now had two week's worth of dust in it. Which only made her shout more. At one point, she yelled "Frankly, Emer, I don't believe you did any cleaning the whole time you were here!" Which is a bit of a bloody cheek coming from a woman whose kitchen was so permanently disgusting that a) it attracted mice** and b) my appalled yet kindly mother did some of June's washing up on the day I moved out just to make it less horrific.
By this time, all the shouting was really starting to stress me out; I was on the verge of tears. I'd been on the lanreotide injections for a few months, and the thing about them that I think I've mentioned before is that they really do make me a lot more emotional and easily upset, for some reason. I had never told June about the whole brain tumour thing or the injections or anything, because frankly I didn't think it was any of her business and it tends to make things awkward.
Anyway, I asked her (politely!) to stop shouting. She shouted "I'M NOT SHOUTING!" at me, then continued shouting. I was so stressed out by the whole thing that I was physically shaking and feeling sick, so when she told me she was going to dock me 10% of my deposit (apparently cleaning a tap costs £65 these days. I'm not sure she's doing it right) I barely even argued because I was so desperate to get out of there. I was still trying to stay calm but I was kind of furious at myself for being so easily upset, so when she continued ranting as she wrote out the cheque I said: "June, I really don't appreciate your attitude today; I made a real effort to fit in with your plans even though it was extremely inconvenient for me, I took time off work and you've been nothing but rude to me the entire time I've been here." Predictably, she started shouting again, threatened to rip up the cheque, blah blah blah.
When I left my former home (with the cheque, thank Christ), I got about four steps down the road before bursting into tears and I was still shaking by the time I got home, at which point I realised that I was probably a bit hypoglycaemic (occassional side effect of the lanreotide injections), ate a couple of biscuits and felt slightly less awful, despite the fact that I had just effectively paid £65 to run away. Fortunately my lovely boyfriend was visiting that evening and he made me feel a lot better, although the whole story made him kind of furious. I believe pissing through June's letterbox was mentioned, and to this day I slightly regret my decision to take the high ground there...
It seems pretty plain to me that June's plan right from the start - before I'd even vacated my room or she had seen it - was to get that money off me. The way she dodged my emails trying to organise it, and then suddenly demanded to have it on a day she already knew I couldn't do, indicates to me that she was hoping I would say I couldn't come, so that she could just arbitraily dock the money and send the cheque in the post without having to do it to my face. The way she avoided doing the inventory on the day I moved out when my mother was there as a witness, and her incredibly aggressive behaviour as soon as I stepped through the door all make it seem as though she was determined to get that £65 by hook or by crook.
That kind of behaviour isn't acceptable from anyone to anyone. Society might consider it rather worse for my landlady to try to intimidate me, a 23 year old girl than, say, a 46 year old bloke. Is that fair? No. Would she even try it on with a 46 year old bloke? Who knows? I certainly doubt she would have behaved in the same way if my boyfriend had been with me. And what about the fact that I'm sick? If June had known about my pituitary tumour, about the fact that I was on hormone treatment which made me feel emotionally pretty delicate and physically resulted in odd bouts of hypoglycaemia, would she have still done it? If I went up to her now, knocked on her door and said "Oh, by the way, June, just so you know - I have a benign brain tumour," would that change the way she felt about her behaviour towards me?
Because it shouldn't.
You can't always tell if someone is sick. Not every ill person has a wheelchair or a bandage or an obvious badge of their personal infirmity. Heck, even if you now them pretty well - even if you live with them - you might not know about it. Yet the default in society is to treat everyone as if they were well and make 'special allowances' for sick people - once they produce a medical certificate. There are plenty of people in the world who would probably be horrified to realise that the shop assistant they were a bit of a dick to yesterday has a brain tumour, or the slightly unhelpful telephone operator they're shouting at has just come back to work after going through chemo. We do these kind of things all the time - and I'm by no means claiming that I'm innocent of this, by the way - and yet, if we knew of the person's illness, or bereavement, or disability, we would never dream of treating them in that way. And the only way to get around this is by trying to treat everyone with as much respect as you can muster, all the time. And even when someone is behaving appallingly, you need to give them the benefit of the doubt, because you just don't know. And that is a really difficult thing to do.
Because here's the killer question: If I found out that June had just been told she had Huntington's, or MS, or cancer, would that change how I felt about her behaviour - even though it wouldn't excuse it?
Of course it would.
And that's why I'm glad we didn't go piss on her doorstep.
Well... mostly glad.
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* So much for "redecorating".
**Which June then killed, which seemed rather unfair. If she didn't leave food for them around all over the place, those poor mice would probably still be alive, frolicking happily in the compost heap.
***
So for about eight or nine months from last summer, I lived as a tenant in a house occupied by my former landlady and her two children, who split their time between her house and their dad's. My former landlady - let's call her In March, I found a lovely new house nearby and gave her my notice. She said that this was fine as it didn't matter to her when the room was redecorated. I tried to organise a time to go through the inventory and get my deposit back, but she was strangely cagey about it. I offered to go through it with her on the day I was moving out, having just cleaned the room with my mum, but she refused. After moving out, again I kept trying to arrange a time to go through it all with her but she continued putting me off until I suddenly received a text message ultimatum that it had to be on that Friday (a day which I had already informed her I wouldn't be able to do) because she had someone moving in the next day.*
I spoke with my manager and was able to leave work early that day in order to go and see her, despite the fact that things were super busy that week and I knew that I would have to work over the weekend to make up the time I lost by leaving early. So off I trotted to my old house.
The instant I got there, things seemed strange. I was let in, but although I had explained to June that it was an awkward time and I would be in a rush, she seemed surprised that I was in a hurry and she stomped upstairs, obviously in a bad mood.
June was always a shouty woman. When her kids were staying, there was shouting every evening - about eating dinner, about singing lessons, about baths, you name it. What I was not prepared for, however, was for her to turn her shoutyness on me practically as soon as we stepped into my former bedroom. She pointed to a laughably small build-up of scale on the bathroom tap and had a go about it - then when I pointed out that it had always been there, she claimed that if there had been scale on the tap, she would have written it down in the inventory. I pointed out that this was not the case, as there were various holes in the walls and floor, the broken curtain fitting etc. which were not in the inventory - seeing as the inventory is a list of the room's furniture, not a detailed description of every aspect of its decor. She yelled that the holes in the floor were "not the problem" and continued shouting, accusing me of allowing a terrible limescale build-up in the shower, "ruining" a bookshelf, leaving the room dusty, etc. etc.
She accused me of not cleaning the room at all before I left; I pointed out that a) not only has she actually seen me going upstairs and downstairs with mops and buckets and cleaning products on the day I moved out but I had also spoken to her about which mop she would rather I use to clean the floor, and b) because she refused to do the inventory on the day, obviously the room now had two week's worth of dust in it. Which only made her shout more. At one point, she yelled "Frankly, Emer, I don't believe you did any cleaning the whole time you were here!" Which is a bit of a bloody cheek coming from a woman whose kitchen was so permanently disgusting that a) it attracted mice** and b) my appalled yet kindly mother did some of June's washing up on the day I moved out just to make it less horrific.
By this time, all the shouting was really starting to stress me out; I was on the verge of tears. I'd been on the lanreotide injections for a few months, and the thing about them that I think I've mentioned before is that they really do make me a lot more emotional and easily upset, for some reason. I had never told June about the whole brain tumour thing or the injections or anything, because frankly I didn't think it was any of her business and it tends to make things awkward.
Anyway, I asked her (politely!) to stop shouting. She shouted "I'M NOT SHOUTING!" at me, then continued shouting. I was so stressed out by the whole thing that I was physically shaking and feeling sick, so when she told me she was going to dock me 10% of my deposit (apparently cleaning a tap costs £65 these days. I'm not sure she's doing it right) I barely even argued because I was so desperate to get out of there. I was still trying to stay calm but I was kind of furious at myself for being so easily upset, so when she continued ranting as she wrote out the cheque I said: "June, I really don't appreciate your attitude today; I made a real effort to fit in with your plans even though it was extremely inconvenient for me, I took time off work and you've been nothing but rude to me the entire time I've been here." Predictably, she started shouting again, threatened to rip up the cheque, blah blah blah.
When I left my former home (with the cheque, thank Christ), I got about four steps down the road before bursting into tears and I was still shaking by the time I got home, at which point I realised that I was probably a bit hypoglycaemic (occassional side effect of the lanreotide injections), ate a couple of biscuits and felt slightly less awful, despite the fact that I had just effectively paid £65 to run away. Fortunately my lovely boyfriend was visiting that evening and he made me feel a lot better, although the whole story made him kind of furious. I believe pissing through June's letterbox was mentioned, and to this day I slightly regret my decision to take the high ground there...
It seems pretty plain to me that June's plan right from the start - before I'd even vacated my room or she had seen it - was to get that money off me. The way she dodged my emails trying to organise it, and then suddenly demanded to have it on a day she already knew I couldn't do, indicates to me that she was hoping I would say I couldn't come, so that she could just arbitraily dock the money and send the cheque in the post without having to do it to my face. The way she avoided doing the inventory on the day I moved out when my mother was there as a witness, and her incredibly aggressive behaviour as soon as I stepped through the door all make it seem as though she was determined to get that £65 by hook or by crook.
That kind of behaviour isn't acceptable from anyone to anyone. Society might consider it rather worse for my landlady to try to intimidate me, a 23 year old girl than, say, a 46 year old bloke. Is that fair? No. Would she even try it on with a 46 year old bloke? Who knows? I certainly doubt she would have behaved in the same way if my boyfriend had been with me. And what about the fact that I'm sick? If June had known about my pituitary tumour, about the fact that I was on hormone treatment which made me feel emotionally pretty delicate and physically resulted in odd bouts of hypoglycaemia, would she have still done it? If I went up to her now, knocked on her door and said "Oh, by the way, June, just so you know - I have a benign brain tumour," would that change the way she felt about her behaviour towards me?
Because it shouldn't.
You can't always tell if someone is sick. Not every ill person has a wheelchair or a bandage or an obvious badge of their personal infirmity. Heck, even if you now them pretty well - even if you live with them - you might not know about it. Yet the default in society is to treat everyone as if they were well and make 'special allowances' for sick people - once they produce a medical certificate. There are plenty of people in the world who would probably be horrified to realise that the shop assistant they were a bit of a dick to yesterday has a brain tumour, or the slightly unhelpful telephone operator they're shouting at has just come back to work after going through chemo. We do these kind of things all the time - and I'm by no means claiming that I'm innocent of this, by the way - and yet, if we knew of the person's illness, or bereavement, or disability, we would never dream of treating them in that way. And the only way to get around this is by trying to treat everyone with as much respect as you can muster, all the time. And even when someone is behaving appallingly, you need to give them the benefit of the doubt, because you just don't know. And that is a really difficult thing to do.
Because here's the killer question: If I found out that June had just been told she had Huntington's, or MS, or cancer, would that change how I felt about her behaviour - even though it wouldn't excuse it?
Of course it would.
And that's why I'm glad we didn't go piss on her doorstep.
Well... mostly glad.
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* So much for "redecorating".
**Which June then killed, which seemed rather unfair. If she didn't leave food for them around all over the place, those poor mice would probably still be alive, frolicking happily in the compost heap.
Friday, 11 May 2012
Ding Ding: Round Two
I had been holding off posting for a few days, not out of laziness,* but because I was waiting to find out the outcome of my hospital appointment last Thursday. And then it took me absolutely ages to type this up because, let's face it, it's dull and complex. For the last couple of months I have been largely in the dark as to the results of my blood tests and recent MRi scan, so I really had no idea what to expect.
What I did not expect was to find the television in the endocrine waiting room playing Cash In The Attic. This television has, to my knowledge, never previously displayed anything other than The Jeremy Kyle Show. I always assumed that the hospital trust had performed some kind of patient survey and determined that diabetics and people with pituitary tumours prefer their televisual experiences to involve shouting, paternity testing, and the phrase "Madam, you disgust me".
I digress.
First up, as per usual, I was weighed (lost: one kilogram since February, almost certainly due to forswearing chocolate over Lent rather than the TSH-oma) and had my blood pressure taken (standing blood pressure: 118/76 - score! It would appear that switching my heart medication back to propranolol has made a difference). Then I had a quick review with one of the endocrinologists about how my symptoms have changed since being on lanreotide injections (not much).
Then the doctor ran away and eventually returned with two other endocrinologists in tow, who all stood at the other end of the room and surveyed me like something interesting they'd found in a jar at the Hunterian Museum.**
They have been somewhat confused by the fact that my levels of various thyroid hormones have remained roughly the same since being on the lanreotide injections, despite the fact that you would expect them to drop.
Additionally, the MRI scan of my pituitary was a little tricky to interpret. Essentially, the pituitary gland is like a tiny upside-down lollipop just below your brain. The stick of the lollipop is called the infundibular stalk*** and it connects the pituitary gland to the hypothalamus. My original MRI pituitary scan showed a great big gobstopper lollipop with a dark patch of necrosis in the middle, where the tissue inside the tumour had died off a bit. To picture this, first imagine a lollipop with a liquid centre, and then imagine something a lot more disgusting. But my latest scan shows a rather more normal-sized lollipop which hasn't grown since my surgery (hurrah!). However, the stick of the lollipop is slightly bending to one side.
Given that there's limited space inside your head for these things to grow, a wonky pituitary stalk can indicate that the bulk of a tumour is pushing the rest of the pituitary gland to one side. So the area of pituitary gland on the left-hand side is now under suspicion. I have to say, looking at the scans was kind of awesome, because it's not like when people show you the ultrasound of their baby and you have to pretend you totally see what they're talking about. I actually could see what they were talking about.
But the problem with MRIs is that they can show you what's there, but not what it's doing. So although it looks like there's probably a bit of tumour left on one side of my pituitary gland and that may well be what's still causing my symptoms, it's still possible that it's not that bit at all. And it would be rubbish to have surgery, take that bit out and then discover it was actually healthy pituitary tissue.
So my doctors want me to have two combined PET/CT scans. PET (Positron Emission Tomography) scans are super colourful and pretty, but that's not the only reason they want me to have one (I hope).
Basically, PET scans can show those areas of the pituitary that are most metabolically active. Inactive areas are dark. So the idea is that I will have one of these scans while not on any kind of medication, which should show the whole pituitary lit up like a christmas tree, and then have another scan after three months on a higher dose of lanreotide, which should suppress the hormone production in the TSHoma. Any areas that go from being bright blue on the first scan to being dark in the second scan are probably tumour. Then, if the tumour is in an easily-accessible area of my head, I might have surgery again. If it's somewhere tricky to reach, I'll probably just continue to have regular injections of lanreotide indefinitely.
So I'm not having any more lanreotide injections for six weeks, so that it's definitely completely out of my system. And in the meantime they want to have me come in overnight one for some research tests on my metabolism and things. Essentially the hospital are collecting patients with pituitary tumours that produce TSH and studying us, so I am now officially a guinea pig.
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*How could you ever think such a thing?
**I'm joking, they were very nice.
***Or just the pituitary stalk, but you don't get to use a word like "infundibular" every day.
What I did not expect was to find the television in the endocrine waiting room playing Cash In The Attic. This television has, to my knowledge, never previously displayed anything other than The Jeremy Kyle Show. I always assumed that the hospital trust had performed some kind of patient survey and determined that diabetics and people with pituitary tumours prefer their televisual experiences to involve shouting, paternity testing, and the phrase "Madam, you disgust me".
I digress.
First up, as per usual, I was weighed (lost: one kilogram since February, almost certainly due to forswearing chocolate over Lent rather than the TSH-oma) and had my blood pressure taken (standing blood pressure: 118/76 - score! It would appear that switching my heart medication back to propranolol has made a difference). Then I had a quick review with one of the endocrinologists about how my symptoms have changed since being on lanreotide injections (not much).
Then the doctor ran away and eventually returned with two other endocrinologists in tow, who all stood at the other end of the room and surveyed me like something interesting they'd found in a jar at the Hunterian Museum.**
They have been somewhat confused by the fact that my levels of various thyroid hormones have remained roughly the same since being on the lanreotide injections, despite the fact that you would expect them to drop.
Additionally, the MRI scan of my pituitary was a little tricky to interpret. Essentially, the pituitary gland is like a tiny upside-down lollipop just below your brain. The stick of the lollipop is called the infundibular stalk*** and it connects the pituitary gland to the hypothalamus. My original MRI pituitary scan showed a great big gobstopper lollipop with a dark patch of necrosis in the middle, where the tissue inside the tumour had died off a bit. To picture this, first imagine a lollipop with a liquid centre, and then imagine something a lot more disgusting. But my latest scan shows a rather more normal-sized lollipop which hasn't grown since my surgery (hurrah!). However, the stick of the lollipop is slightly bending to one side.
Given that there's limited space inside your head for these things to grow, a wonky pituitary stalk can indicate that the bulk of a tumour is pushing the rest of the pituitary gland to one side. So the area of pituitary gland on the left-hand side is now under suspicion. I have to say, looking at the scans was kind of awesome, because it's not like when people show you the ultrasound of their baby and you have to pretend you totally see what they're talking about. I actually could see what they were talking about.
But the problem with MRIs is that they can show you what's there, but not what it's doing. So although it looks like there's probably a bit of tumour left on one side of my pituitary gland and that may well be what's still causing my symptoms, it's still possible that it's not that bit at all. And it would be rubbish to have surgery, take that bit out and then discover it was actually healthy pituitary tissue.
So my doctors want me to have two combined PET/CT scans. PET (Positron Emission Tomography) scans are super colourful and pretty, but that's not the only reason they want me to have one (I hope).
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| PET scan of the brain |
Basically, PET scans can show those areas of the pituitary that are most metabolically active. Inactive areas are dark. So the idea is that I will have one of these scans while not on any kind of medication, which should show the whole pituitary lit up like a christmas tree, and then have another scan after three months on a higher dose of lanreotide, which should suppress the hormone production in the TSHoma. Any areas that go from being bright blue on the first scan to being dark in the second scan are probably tumour. Then, if the tumour is in an easily-accessible area of my head, I might have surgery again. If it's somewhere tricky to reach, I'll probably just continue to have regular injections of lanreotide indefinitely.
So I'm not having any more lanreotide injections for six weeks, so that it's definitely completely out of my system. And in the meantime they want to have me come in overnight one for some research tests on my metabolism and things. Essentially the hospital are collecting patients with pituitary tumours that produce TSH and studying us, so I am now officially a guinea pig.
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*How could you ever think such a thing?
**I'm joking, they were very nice.
***Or just the pituitary stalk, but you don't get to use a word like "infundibular" every day.
Tuesday, 10 April 2012
Quick Update
Hello! Here is another short post - I know, I know, I'm a reprobate. Obviously what the internet really needs is another one of my long rambly posts about injections and hand dryers. But the internet will have to wait.
So as I hinted previously, I was sick last Tuesday, having managed to pick up some kind of stomach bug that just made me throw up all the time. Any time I got out of bed, I threw up. So I made the sensible decision to stay there for the day. Admittedly, since childhood I have been notoriously prone to vomiting at the least provocation - car journeys, overexcitement, eating too many of those sweets shaped like flying saucers with sherbet in the middle. When I was about twelve, I went through a phase that lasted a couple of years where I just threw up every time I stayed around a friend's house. There was no apparent cause (I don't know if my parents thought I was just drinking excessive quantities of alcopops, but in honesty I wasn't). Eventually I grew out of it. But even for me, I think that being sick seven times in eleven hours is some kind of record. I actually managed to pull a muscle in my stomach slightly from it. Nice.
Oh by the way, heads up - if you're grossed out by talk of me being sick, you probably shouldn't have read that last paragraph. Just a warning.
Anyway, the point is that although I was a bit pathetic for a few days given that I hadn't been able to eat or drink on Tuesday, I am now fine! Raring to go, in fact. Except obviously I have to catch up on all the work I didn't get done, and more importantly having given up chocolate for Easter I now have a whole lot of catching up to do on that front as well.
I've not yet heard from the hospital regarding my latest set of blood tests or the MRI I had, but my next appointment with my endocrinologist (well, in theory it's with him. In practice, past experience tells me it could be literally any endocrinologist) is on the 3rd of May so I'm assuming I'll get everything then.
Interestingly, I've realised that now I'm back on the lanreotide injections, which have slowed my heart down again now - there's a bit of a time lag, but after two months' worth of injections it has slowed down significantly even without medication - my heartrate has become an accurate predictor of me getting ill. It's happened before with colds that my heartrate started to go up noticeably about a day or so before I felt the symptoms, and again with this bug I had last week. So next time instead of just being annoyed when my heartrate rises for no apparent reason, I shall run around telling people that I'm psychic and I foresee that I will come down with a cold in the immediate future.... Sweet!
So as I hinted previously, I was sick last Tuesday, having managed to pick up some kind of stomach bug that just made me throw up all the time. Any time I got out of bed, I threw up. So I made the sensible decision to stay there for the day. Admittedly, since childhood I have been notoriously prone to vomiting at the least provocation - car journeys, overexcitement, eating too many of those sweets shaped like flying saucers with sherbet in the middle. When I was about twelve, I went through a phase that lasted a couple of years where I just threw up every time I stayed around a friend's house. There was no apparent cause (I don't know if my parents thought I was just drinking excessive quantities of alcopops, but in honesty I wasn't). Eventually I grew out of it. But even for me, I think that being sick seven times in eleven hours is some kind of record. I actually managed to pull a muscle in my stomach slightly from it. Nice.
Oh by the way, heads up - if you're grossed out by talk of me being sick, you probably shouldn't have read that last paragraph. Just a warning.
Anyway, the point is that although I was a bit pathetic for a few days given that I hadn't been able to eat or drink on Tuesday, I am now fine! Raring to go, in fact. Except obviously I have to catch up on all the work I didn't get done, and more importantly having given up chocolate for Easter I now have a whole lot of catching up to do on that front as well.
I've not yet heard from the hospital regarding my latest set of blood tests or the MRI I had, but my next appointment with my endocrinologist (well, in theory it's with him. In practice, past experience tells me it could be literally any endocrinologist) is on the 3rd of May so I'm assuming I'll get everything then.
Interestingly, I've realised that now I'm back on the lanreotide injections, which have slowed my heart down again now - there's a bit of a time lag, but after two months' worth of injections it has slowed down significantly even without medication - my heartrate has become an accurate predictor of me getting ill. It's happened before with colds that my heartrate started to go up noticeably about a day or so before I felt the symptoms, and again with this bug I had last week. So next time instead of just being annoyed when my heartrate rises for no apparent reason, I shall run around telling people that I'm psychic and I foresee that I will come down with a cold in the immediate future.... Sweet!
Thursday, 22 March 2012
My Last Injection... For Now
On Tuesday morning at 10.15 I had my latest lanreotide injection, and as the initial decision was that I would have them for three months and then review, I'm now waiting to hear back from my endocrinologist as to whether he wants me to continue with the injections. The answer to that will almost certainly be yes, unless the next MRI scan shows that my pituitary tumour has fallen out of my nose at some point in the last two months;* the real question is whether the dosage needs to be increased, and if they're thinking about sending me in for more surgery.
Actually getting the injection was fun, because it was administered by my favourite nurse. I know it's wrong to have favourites, but I was almost heartbroken last month when both she and her lovely Australian colleague were away at injection time and I had to book in with The Rubbish Nurse. She's not a bad nurse, I should clarify, she's very competent, but she hasn't got the hang of Making Injections Fun yet. This is a valuable skill and, in case there are any nurses out there, it goes like this:
1. Recognise the patient. If you don't recognise the patient, you can just pretend. This is an acceptable fiction and they will almost certainly pretend back.
Pro tip: Once you are practised at this deception, or if you are interested in a career in acting, consider taking this a step further and invent a complete backstory to your relationship with each patient. Imagining that you are administering an injection to the wife of the man with whom you had a torrid affair in pre-independence Kiribati will add spice to an otherwise dull day.
2. Greet the patient. Do not disappear down the corridor so quickly that they can't work out which dread medical portal you emerged from.
Pro tip: Alternatively, if you really can't bear to wait for your patients to pick up their coats before exiting the waiting room, why not turn this into a game of Hide and Seek (Nurse Edition)? There's nothing like the sight of confused patients blundering into the wrong consulting room to raise a belly laugh in the morning.
3. Put The Patient At Ease. When unwrapping the syringe of lanreotide, remember to refrain from comments such as "Bloody hell, that's a big needle!"
Pro tip: Consider tapping in to your patients' latent competitive natures by introducing a leaderboard of Bravest Patient of the Week. That way, they'll be practically queuing up to be spiked by giant needles, instead of fleeing you in terror.
4. Be Awesome. This guideline may be difficult for new practitioners to grasp immediately. Examples of Being Awesome include (but are not limited to): telling patients interesting medical facts (this week I learned about the sciatic nerve), having an awesome accent, telling amusing family anecdotes, laughing frequently, and adopting unusual pet names for each patient.
Pro tip: Like the finest cuisine, the best pet names are based around animals and vegetables. Everyone's been called "duck" or "pumpkin" - why not mix it up? Try referring to patients as "prarie dog" or "aubergine".
In other news, I had a bit of minor drama trying to get hold of my beloved Somatuline Autogel injection this month; when I got the prescription, I headed straight to Boots Pharmacy as usual, who always have to order it in directly from their supplier because it's a pretty unusual item. I happily skipped to the counter, only to be informed that their supplier didn't have any in stock, and they couldn't say when they might have it, so I should go elsewhere.
Somewhat surprised, I decided to transfer my business to the Superdrug pharmacy. "I'll have to check with our supplier," said the young man behind the counter. He immediately phoned them, while standing in front of me. Apparently everything was fine and they'd have it in the next day. Impressed by this speedy service, I skipped off on my merry way.** Of course, next day I got a phone call from them saying that their supplier didn't have any and they couldn't say when it would next be in stock. Heaven only knows who the bloke behind the counter had actually phoned while I was watching; perhaps he's the chap keeping the Speakng Clock in business.
So I picked up my prescription and, feeling a little panicked, decided to try Boots again before walking miles to another pharmacy. And lo! the bloke behind the counter looked at my script and quoth: "Oh yes, we've got that for you." I assumed he was confused - perhaps a relation of the guy in Superdrug. But no! Boots had lovingly ordered in my medication even though they had encouraged me to look elsewhere, just on the offchance I would return for it. So that was nice.
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*Just to clarify for any non-medically-qualified readers: this is unlikely.
**I was doing a lot of skipping that day.
Actually getting the injection was fun, because it was administered by my favourite nurse. I know it's wrong to have favourites, but I was almost heartbroken last month when both she and her lovely Australian colleague were away at injection time and I had to book in with The Rubbish Nurse. She's not a bad nurse, I should clarify, she's very competent, but she hasn't got the hang of Making Injections Fun yet. This is a valuable skill and, in case there are any nurses out there, it goes like this:
The Idiot's Guide To Making Injections Fun:
1. Recognise the patient. If you don't recognise the patient, you can just pretend. This is an acceptable fiction and they will almost certainly pretend back.
Pro tip: Once you are practised at this deception, or if you are interested in a career in acting, consider taking this a step further and invent a complete backstory to your relationship with each patient. Imagining that you are administering an injection to the wife of the man with whom you had a torrid affair in pre-independence Kiribati will add spice to an otherwise dull day.
2. Greet the patient. Do not disappear down the corridor so quickly that they can't work out which dread medical portal you emerged from.
Pro tip: Alternatively, if you really can't bear to wait for your patients to pick up their coats before exiting the waiting room, why not turn this into a game of Hide and Seek (Nurse Edition)? There's nothing like the sight of confused patients blundering into the wrong consulting room to raise a belly laugh in the morning.
3. Put The Patient At Ease. When unwrapping the syringe of lanreotide, remember to refrain from comments such as "Bloody hell, that's a big needle!"
Pro tip: Consider tapping in to your patients' latent competitive natures by introducing a leaderboard of Bravest Patient of the Week. That way, they'll be practically queuing up to be spiked by giant needles, instead of fleeing you in terror.
4. Be Awesome. This guideline may be difficult for new practitioners to grasp immediately. Examples of Being Awesome include (but are not limited to): telling patients interesting medical facts (this week I learned about the sciatic nerve), having an awesome accent, telling amusing family anecdotes, laughing frequently, and adopting unusual pet names for each patient.
Pro tip: Like the finest cuisine, the best pet names are based around animals and vegetables. Everyone's been called "duck" or "pumpkin" - why not mix it up? Try referring to patients as "prarie dog" or "aubergine".
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In other news, I had a bit of minor drama trying to get hold of my beloved Somatuline Autogel injection this month; when I got the prescription, I headed straight to Boots Pharmacy as usual, who always have to order it in directly from their supplier because it's a pretty unusual item. I happily skipped to the counter, only to be informed that their supplier didn't have any in stock, and they couldn't say when they might have it, so I should go elsewhere.
Somewhat surprised, I decided to transfer my business to the Superdrug pharmacy. "I'll have to check with our supplier," said the young man behind the counter. He immediately phoned them, while standing in front of me. Apparently everything was fine and they'd have it in the next day. Impressed by this speedy service, I skipped off on my merry way.** Of course, next day I got a phone call from them saying that their supplier didn't have any and they couldn't say when it would next be in stock. Heaven only knows who the bloke behind the counter had actually phoned while I was watching; perhaps he's the chap keeping the Speakng Clock in business.
So I picked up my prescription and, feeling a little panicked, decided to try Boots again before walking miles to another pharmacy. And lo! the bloke behind the counter looked at my script and quoth: "Oh yes, we've got that for you." I assumed he was confused - perhaps a relation of the guy in Superdrug. But no! Boots had lovingly ordered in my medication even though they had encouraged me to look elsewhere, just on the offchance I would return for it. So that was nice.
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*Just to clarify for any non-medically-qualified readers: this is unlikely.
**I was doing a lot of skipping that day.
Friday, 2 March 2012
A New Treatment for Cushing's Disease?
I've just been reading about a drug called Pasireotide. It's been around for a while, but on January 23rd this year, the European Medicines Agency's Committee for Medicinal Products for Human Use recommended that pasireotide be approved for use in the treatment of Cushing's Disease. This is exciting, because Cushing's Disease - in which a benign tumour of the pituitary gland causes the body to release excess steroid hormone - has long been very difficult to treat medically, with surgery and radiotherapy being the main treatments. But they're not always appropriate or successful for every patient.
Pasireotide (brand name Signifor, developed by Novartis) is a somatostatin analogue - like the medication lanreotide, which I take at the moment to prevent my own pituitary tumour from releasing thyroid-stimulating hormone. Like lanreotide and octreotide, the two somatostatin medications currently on the market, pasireotide looks likely to be effective in treating acromegaly and neuroendocrine tumours; unlike them, it appears to be much more effective at blocking tumours from producing adrenocorticotrophic hormone.
At the moment, there are no approved medicines in Europe for the treatment of Cushing's. Other drugs are used in practise, off-label, but with less data about their safety and effectiveness against the disease, so for Signifor to be approved would be a very significant step. The European Commission looks set to make its decision in the next few months.
Pasireotide (brand name Signifor, developed by Novartis) is a somatostatin analogue - like the medication lanreotide, which I take at the moment to prevent my own pituitary tumour from releasing thyroid-stimulating hormone. Like lanreotide and octreotide, the two somatostatin medications currently on the market, pasireotide looks likely to be effective in treating acromegaly and neuroendocrine tumours; unlike them, it appears to be much more effective at blocking tumours from producing adrenocorticotrophic hormone.
At the moment, there are no approved medicines in Europe for the treatment of Cushing's. Other drugs are used in practise, off-label, but with less data about their safety and effectiveness against the disease, so for Signifor to be approved would be a very significant step. The European Commission looks set to make its decision in the next few months.
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